I've always been a cautious and guarded soul who doesn't want to stick her neck out and risk getting bit. That likely stems from having so many early losses in my life, and still now. But I've jumped in with both feet this time and it feels good!
Honestly, if you had asked me back in May what I thought the future held for our Ryon and Kaitey I would have said, "I'm gonna pray them through it. I have no idea." Well pray I did and I'm still prayin' and God is blessing us in such big ways that I'm gonna go out on a limb and be overwhelmingly joyful.
How can I hold back my joy when I hold tiny little Cyrus in my arms? He's the image of his father, my son. The image of my son. That is huge! And yet, at least right now, his personality is that of his Mom, Kaitlyn. Still as a pond. Oh. Thank.You. God!!
If I love Cyrus this much, knowing how he fills my heart because of who he is-- made like my son, this resounds of Jesus who God sent to earth in human form to save us, to give us new life. Separated from God no more in sin. His joy is even greater than mine with who He created, you and me. Made in the image of His Son, Jesus Christ. I type in tears at this realization-given but a glimpse of His goodness, invested in all of us. He laughs when we laugh, weeps when we weep. Longs for us to tell Him we love Him. Longs to hear us sing His name in praise. And the joy He must feel when we are home with Him. Oh God, how you love us. Thank you for your Son. Our Savior, our Prince of Peace. King of Kings. Lord of all.
Multiplying my joy is knowing that they are shaping up to be some pretty awesome parents. Young yes, but they are patient, intuitive, gentle, doting and always ready to hear words of advice. I'm not sure I was so eager to hear advice as they are.
Then came Sunday. That's when I just bubbled over like a soup pot at full boil! We all attended church together as it was a very special day for my niece and her husband. They became members of our church and were baptized together as well. Hard to top that one all by itself on the joy meter! They are different, they know it. Ask them! They will more than happily share this journey. And the best part? It's just begun! Oh thank you God for what you have planted in those who I love so dearly. I eagerly await your plan for them.
Having our son, his girlfriend, and their baby at my side tipped me over the edge. If only I could've bottled up the excess joy to uncork on a day when I need a boost! I tell you we'd need a case! As they sat there, holding hands and listening to Pastor Paul's sermon, adoringly attending to their little miracle; I felt like my heart would just explode from my chest.
Lord you are so good. You love us unconditionally. You long to draw us even closer to You. How great you are! This is my prayer, Lord please let my words be pleasing to You.
Dear Heavenly Father,
This weekend was full of tangible, physical, rock-solid evidence of Your presence in our lives.Thank you for that! Sometimes I need it. Not because I need something tangible to believe who You are, but when events transcend thought or feeling and become tangible they are so much more perceivable to me in my human qualities. Thank you, that you know what I need. Thank you that you are taking such good care of our son, Kaitlyn, and Cyrus Alexander. Lord please continue to bless them in this journey. Lord I pray that they will continue to grow in love, unity and trust for one another. I pray that they will, in their own time, make their way to the alter. To consecrate their marriage with You in the center. Lord I trust in Your goodness. I know you love them more than I humanly can. For that I find immense peace, comfort and boundless joy. Thank you for the work you are doing in our family, our church and in me. I am humbled that You would love me and use me to be Your hands and feet here on earth. Help me God. Help me to be and to do all you want. Let it be Your will God, not mine. When I am weak, make me strong. When storms come, let me lean in to your loving arms. When joyful times come, such as these, let me never forget that You are the source of this joy. How great You are! Amen.
I sit at Your feet, longing for more...
~Kate-Lyn~
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